I know I don’t post on this blog anymore, but this was too good to keep to myself. A couple of nights ago, I was scrolling though old notes, journal entries and essays, reminiscing my high school life, for I’m all too quickly finding myself about to start my second year of college. I stumbled upon a poem I remember writing out of the abundance of my heart, and as I read the piece line by line, I began to think about weeping (I didn’t actually weep, because I was listening to EDM then, and weeping while listening to EDM is kind of weird).
Anyway, here’s the poem. It isn’t all that good, but it means a lot to me and helped me unearth what love really is. Hopefully it does the same for you.
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A Poem About Love
Love sees past my pride,
Love sees past my insecurity,
Love sees past all I want Love to see,
and all I don’t want Love to see.
Love has beautiful eyes, and with them Love looks into my innermost being, turning over tables and chairs, knocking down desks and drawers, opening closets and finding skeletons and cobwebs.
And then Love looks deeper,
and sees deeper.
Love finds me.
Love finds me, hiding as a needle in a haystack, and I find myself on my knees.
I know I’m too filthy to stand before Love so pure.
But Love chooses me.
Though I choose other things and chase other things,
Love chooses me and chases me.
Love embraces me, taking me as I am and stealing me away as He stole away my sin. Then Love never lets go.
Love wants me,
not for the reason that I have any gift to offer or incense to burn,
not for the reason that I stand atop a mountain I climbed up on my own,
not for the reason that I have tried to buy freedom with my words and works,
not for the reason that I am shackled in chains of gold and diamond,
not for the reason that I rot in a prison built in darkness,
and definitely not for the reason that I am trapped because I had once turned away from Love.
Love pulls me close, and I pull away.
Love pulls me close, and I pull away.
Love pulls me close, and whispers to my heart,
“You are Mine. I created you, purposed you, found you and bought you. You are Mine, and nothing will ever take me away from you.”
Love rescues me.
Love pulls me out of the pit and showers me with mercy,
then Love breathes life into my spirit once more.
Love pulls me close, and my resistance weakens.
Love? I deserve nothing of this. Not even a crumb.
I pulled away. Justice is Love abandoning me and forgetting me.
Love so pure deserves not the dirt of a filthy wretch.
Love so great deserves not the minusculety of an infinitesimal speck.
Love so strong deserves not the weakness of a feeble ant.
But Love wants me,
for reasons my heart cannot comprehend.
Love pulls me close, and I stand still.
Love pulls me close, and I come near.
Love pulls me close, and I rest in His arms and hear His heartbeat:
Grace.
Hope.
Joy.
Peace.
Love.
Love.
Love.
Love, Love, Love, Love, Love!
Oh, that I may sleep forever in Love’s sweet embrace! Nothing ever shall compare. No height nor depth in all the heavens ever shall compare to the vastness of the Love that has found me.
Oh, how He Loves! I am overwhelmed. Oh, how He Loves.
Now as I am Loved since forever and for forever,
Love is mine to keep and treasure,
unconquerable even by death,
unstoppable even by time.
Love is mine,
and I am His.
Thank You, Jesus.